Mercury Retrograde In Taurus: The Return Of The Thorny Rose
"I don't wanna love, but you're my drug, so I keep coming back for more" - Halsey, "Control"
Mercury, the messenger of Gods to mortals, takes its retrograde trip in Taurus this time. It is often known Mercury retrograde is a period when secrets come to light, things left unsaid are finally said and closures are sought and of course, trips, packages and electronics are both delayed and rendered useless (for a period of time, at least). The sign Mercury transits and retrogrades through often colors the themes of the 3 weeks of the retrograde period which means that wherever this sign falls in your chart, there’s “unfinished business” regarding the affairs of this house.
Taurus is a sign that concerns itself with security. Because it’s ruled by Venus, its deepest inclination is to create and enjoy a stable environment. Pleasure is not just a concept for Taurus, it’s a mandatory requirement for our wellbeing and emotional flexibility, durability and motivation throughout life. In simple words, if your Taurean side is functional, that means you have a foundation to survive and if it’s wounded, you will always seek that foundation to feel ease and rest.
We all have a Taurean side! the hardest part about recognizing that Taurean side is that we often take it for granted because it rules the simple pleasures in life like enjoying ice cream or feeling at ease when in nature or simply the calmness and harmony your mind feels when you’re secure.
Our Taurean part is the most primal part of us, it enjoys beauty and is repelled by sourness and conflict. It wants to coexist, to connect and to eat exquisitely ripe fruit while laying in the Sun with our love.
We all come here with a Taurean chip that guides our relationship to our nature and surroundings. It’s integral for our development and wellbeing, but what if it is challenged early on? what if the challenge proves itself stubborn and inescapable? what if the threat to this security persists over a long period of time through childhood and teenage years? that Taurus side that wants to connect and feel secure gets wounded!
When our Taurus side is wounded, we erect a huge wall around ourselves for survival, it hits our self esteem creating deep seated issues when it comes to self acceptance. Because the side of Venus that rules Taurus rules value, when it is wounded, we lose any sense of value for ourselves which means we find it really hard to allow ourselves to feel any pleasure or any sense of deservedness. It Creates a tendency to self-punish.
This Mercury retrograde through the sign of self value brings back the origins and dynamics of that self punishment and devaluation because our caregivers (*
cough* mom *cough*) could not give us a secure sense of attachment or value.
When this happens, we spend a lot of time attempting to get the parent to attach to us because our primal survival depends on it. Throughout this experience, the ups and downs of how this parent(s) see us or continue to attach and detach adds to this primal guilt or sense of self punishment which creates a distorted sense of attachment in our adult love relationships bringing us to the mission of this Mercury retrograde in Taurus.
This Mercury retrograde in Taurus is bringing back relationships that end up in implosion every time there’s closeness and gravitational pull when there’s distance. It’s a seesaw of pain and pleasure. It feels tempting to get crucified on the cross of this love because we’re familiar with the pain and the high.
This Mercury retrograde is dangling the fruit of desire and pain in front of us. The temptation is immense to go back to a dynamic where we constantly feel we are burning internally when close and completely devitalized when apart and although it is extremely addictive to go through the motion in hopes of getting another hit, the down afterwards is incredibly destructive, but can we resist the heartfelt promises of a thorny rose that wounded us before?
Thrillingly accurate as always. Thank you so much!